14 November 2018

Struggling with the future

I'm kind of struggling with the future. I have the feeling that I don't make any progress in life, that I've created a routine which I'm just following every single day. I need to change some things in order to feel happy and fulfilled.

I'm always talking about how important it is to live in the moment, and it is. But I found out that working towards something and keep evolving yourself is also very important. I feel kind of 'stuck' in life. The last few days or even weeks I caught myself moaning and feeling sorry for myself. I don't want to live like this anymore so if I want to change something, I'll have to do something.

I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do and who I want to be as a person. I've always used to be so creative, but this stopped for a few years. Since last year, I have this idea of having my own webshop where I can sell my own products and designs. Instead of instantly doing something with this idea, I've waited and continued following my daily routine (because this was just the easiest thing to do). I discovered that by doing this, I become very unhappy. I saw the people around me going to school, having a future in mind and working towards their goals. Whilst I was just sitting there feeling unmotivated.

A few months ago I started writing again, making pictures, and just being creative. This is what I should do, this is what I like and what makes me happy. So why not give it a shot and start my own webshop? I immediately wrote down all the things that needs to be done and planned it all out. I also want to be more consistent with writing articles for my blog and posting more pictures on Instagram. I have a goal now, something I want to achieve and where I'm able to evolve in.

By clearing my mind I found out what I want to do right now and where I want to invest my time, money and energy in. It was always there but I couldn't see it because I was too busy with having bad thoughts and looking up to other peoples lives.

I think everyone has those periods where you don't know what you want in your life. Take a step back, think and go for it.